Day Twenty four – Great Day…No cravings…

Wow! I ate all day and had no cravings. I decided on a few things that are helpful:




1) Eat as much fruit and greens as you want. Even when you aren’t hungry. Just eat…

2) No weighing yourself. Its pointless. The weight will come off when it wants to, but it will definitely come off.

3) No counting days. Take it one day at a time. No need to fret about tomorrow or a month from now. Its going to happen no matter what.

4) No focusing on your body or ailments. No need to sit there and worry about your ailments or your body. I don't even look at myself because I know its trully pointless. The fact is my body is changing and what I see today is not pertinent.


These tips have helped tremendously. I am excited.

Day Twenty three – Ready!!!

Today, I decided not to fret about what I was eating. I ate what ever I wanted. What I discovered was that I actually enjoyed the salads and fruits that I ate over the cooked stuff. I actually liked it better. I am ready to do this. I feel it now. Tommorrow is it. I am officially a 100% raw foodist and I see myself staying as one for the rest of my life. This is no longer a 90day cleanse for me this is a lifestyle. This is who I am.

Day Twenty two – Hypnosis

I can’t believe it. I actually went into a state of hypnosis with this audio book. It was so unexpected. I feel I have a pretty strong mind so I couldn’t believe how in a mater of a few minutes I was under. I didn’t realize what was happening to me until an hour and half later when I woke out of it. It was so strange. I was great the whole day but at night I ate again. It seems that at night is my worst time of day. Its usually around eight or nine. I had this issue before and the way I overcame it was to go to bed early and to keep myself busy. I need to try this.

Day Twenty one – Just got real hungry and ate cooked

I felt so sick. I ate and just didn’t sit well in my stomach. Nothing I eat anymore does unless its raw fruits and green leafy vegetables. I am listening to a audiobook on hypnosis and dieting. It is very enlightening. I think its helping tremendously.

Day Twenty – Revelation on the Mind….

I have to share something extraordinary today. I decided the second I got up today, that in order for things to change, I have to change my mind. It was one of the first thoughts I had when I woke up. The second I started to stumble out of bed, I began the ritual of feeling guilty for what I had done the day before. I usually do this. I go over all the toxicity that my body is and will go through because of the food I ate previously. But today, I didn’t venture into these thoughts. Today, I venture into the thoughts of being totally raw and cleansed. I thought of the energy, the clear and positive mindfulness, the cleansed and pure body that I have, and the unity with being aligned with nature. I didn’t weigh myself today, nor will I until a week goes by. I have decided to only weigh myself once a week. Weighing yourself, is not the best way to focus on the weight you want. Reading the great book “The Secret” taught me this. I have read another book, called “ The Master Key System” which is what “The Secret” is based on. In this book the author says “The truth” of life is what you hold focus to in your mind. He gives an example that if you continue to loose focus than you don’t establish your truth. He says to plant a seed and than know fully in your heart it will grow. You are supposed to only nourish this seed with the mind energy of it blossoming and growing to the form that you want. He says not to continually question the seeds ability to do this. He says to question it is like taking it out of the ground continuously and examining its roots to see if it’s growing. By doing this, you kill the plant. When you continuously weigh yourself, examine your body, or focus on where your not, than you are lifting the plant from the ground and looking at its roots. I decided not to do this. I usually look at my body when I undress, today I didn’t focus on it. I focused on a great body, a lean and tone physique, cleansed and glowing uterus, and a positive alert mind. Today was a good day. I felt something different. I felt a sense of freedom and happiness I haven’t in awhile. January 5th I will be on the cleanse for 90 days. Yeah!!!

Day Nineteen – Exhausted

OK…I am so tired of this. I think I will stay on raw simply so I don’t have to restart it again. I know that if I can just get through three weeks, it will be great! I would love to. I spoke with a 100% raw foodist today. She has been for 7 years and the good raw foodist with minimal fat and no dehydration. She said I should incorporate cooked veggies in my diet. I almost want to, but feel that I just need to do this already to get it out of my system. I was totally bad today. Not on raw at all. I did have a salad, and I have to say it was on of the most delicious things I had today.




My weight today is: 126.8

Day Eighteen – Ate Cooked Again! but taking it as an opportunity

So last night was very difficult. Something was going in within me. I was so restless. I peed like a million times in the night. I felt anxious. Almost noxious, but not quite. I couldn’t sleep. I had a tender pain in my uterus. Its got to be the fibroids. They are acting weird. They changed shape. Instead of being round they are flattening, but in the process, taking over my entire belly. Weird, it like they are turning into flat pancakes. As much as I wanted to, last night I sustained from eating anything bad. I woke up tired but with energy, if that makes sense. I felt light and on my feet, but my head was tired. Or it was my head was awake but my body was tired. I couldn’t tell. But I did know that one was not in sync with the other. Still, when I worked out, I felt great. I wasn’t tired after that. Than I went most of the day eating raw, up until I went to my parents’ restaurant.




This is when things went astray. With out much thought, I ate a hummus raw sandwich. How do I keep myself from doing this I wonder? How do I keep myself straight? Oh, how I want to make it second nature in my head that I will eat raw and the good raw, fruits and green leafy veggies, only. This is the only food out there, besides maybe occasional seaweed and sprouts. Than the vicious patern started. I went to eat Mexican food, which I have been craving for days. Than I ate more food at Whole Foods, even though after the Mexican food, my stomach couldn’t bear anymore. This is how I feel now. I want to describe it in full because I hope to read this next time I get urges.



1) I feel like my body is going to explode. There is so much pressure in my stomach.

2) I feel physical pain from the pressure

3) I feel angry. I am not feeling loving or alive like I do when I stay on raw for a while.

4) I feel defeated.

5) I feel hopeless to get through this.

6) I feel like the pain of the detox is much more worthwhile and giving than this pain so why do I do it.



I will continue to write more tomorrow. I know that I will be feeling it than with retention, inflammation, and weight gain. Plus not detoxing very well.



I also want to add that I see so many people out there that are heavy and sickly looking. I see the world is imbalanced in this regard. I see beautiful human bodies that have been mistreated and are latterly dying. I see the shame in that these humans will never enjoy life to its fullest nor love and give love to its fullest, in a world that so needs it right now. I want to fight to bring more balance to the world. I want to be the energy that is positive and not adding to the negativity in this world. I believe that being on raw is something more than about me. Its about the rest of the world and about being one with nature again. Its about being harmonious with the living energy that creates all and is all good.



My weight today is: 124.6

Day Seventeen – So Challenging!!!

Its 8:15 pm. I am so craving food that is cooked. Its driving me literally insane. The things that are holding me back are the following:


1) I made a commitment to do this and want to keep it.

2) I try to imagine myself after I eat the cooked and I see the same amount of anguish as I am feeling now except it is fortified with guilt, disappointment, hopelessness, and anger. Plus physical discomfort but that is probably less than what I am feeling physically right now.

3) I am reading what the foods I crave do to my body and I don’t want it. I’ve been mistreating myself for 35 years and I need to know I can end it.

4) I have a tinge of hope that this will pass, and I will feel energetic, healthy, and positive.

5) I have hope that this will go away eventually and I will be a peace with all this struggle.



I am feeling so tired. I feel just lazy and depressed, but at the same time anxious. I went to whole foods today, and as tempted as I was to get the foods that I wanted, I didn’t. I almost felt anxiety as I left the store without getting the cooked foods I wanted. I so want to just get through this. I hope there is light tomorrow in the morning when I wake up.



My weight today is: 125.2

Day Sixteen – A bit Disillusioned!

I am bit confused today. I met a raw foodist who had been raw for 7 years, and the good raw too. She was a fruitarian who ate green leafy veggies and even avocados. But she looked incredibly unhealthy. She was emaciated. She was practically bald. I have to admit, I met a man this past week, who was also a big proponent and raw foodist like her, who also looked quite unhealthy and suffered from bad hair and partially balding. If this diet is so wonderful, than why all these sickly looking people. What does this mean…There must be something wrong with the way they are eating. It made me wonder. At the same time, I see my body and the way it reacts when I eat this way, and I can’t help but feel it is doing wonderfully. I also see my body and the way it reacts when I don’t eat 100% raw and it becomes ill. What to think right now is difficult? I did have some dehydrated veggie crackers last night with Celtic Sea Salt. I was so hungry. I did eat a liter of green and lots of fruit, but had pangs of hunger last night and gave in. I know that I have work to do emotionally and mentally to overcome this. One thing I am noticing about myself, is that always at the same time of the day, I get the worst cravings. Its always at around 6 pm. I can remain mentally strong all day, but around this time, I feel like giving in. I dream about all the cooked and even unvegan foods I want to eat and this continues up until I go to bed. Sometimes I succumb which is what I have done a few times since I started this blog and sometimes I just fall asleep thinking to myself how I will eat all my cravings the next day. I usually wake up without any cravings and ready to continue on this path of being 100% raw. I will admit right now, that if I end up looking like these raw foodist that I met, I will definitely be changing my diet. I don’t want to be or look like them.


My weight today is: 126

Day Fifteen – Eat Foods that Love You Back

I read in Dr. Graham’s book that you should eat food that loves you back. I was thinking of this, and its true that all the food out there that we eat is like a bad relationship. You enjoy the moment with it, but in the end its abusive and destructive to your well being. I was tempted today, but than thought of the fat and salt and sickness that was in the food I was craving. It definitely helped defeat it. I was good all day. The green smoothie truly calms me down.




My weight today is: 128

Day Fourteen - Messed it up by not following my own advice

I didn't follow my own advice. I didn't have my green smoothie. I was craving horrible today. I wanted it all. I kept pushing back. I should of carried the green smoothie all day today. I messed up and had soup and sushi. What a mess up....Still I did prove the avocado and dried fruit theory. I lost a lot of weight this moring. I guess I just gained it all back.

I trully am struggling with this. Its going to get easier. It is easy. My new ninty day mark January 1st.

My weight today is:  123.2

Day Thirteen - A Lesson on the Green Smoothie

You have to have the green drink aka. green smoothie to make it through. I have proven this to myself over and over. Its as key as positive thinking. My goodness, without the green smoothie things can get really challenging. I was so tempted today to get chips and salsa. I went to a friends house and thank goodness the restaurant closed before I could get the chips and salsa. I tried to entertain myself with my friend so that I didn't have to think about it, but even after spending the night, I woke up wanting food, until I had my green smoothie. This calmed me right down. Its key:

A green smoothie recipie:

A least three types of green leafy veggies filled to rim in a vitamix (parsley, chard, kale, cilantro, dandelion greens, and greens on top of carrots, beets, and thing else that is green leafy)
A large fugi apple
2 ripe bananas
1/2 cup filtered (ideally alkalized) water

Put all in a vitamix and blend.

My weight today: 126

Day Twelve – Lesson on “Less is More”

So I figure something out today and I would like to share it with you. I noticed that when I eliminate avocado and dried fruit completely out of my diet, not only do I get less cravings, I loss so much water retention. You would think that denying these foods would make it harder to stay on, when the complete opposite is true. Having them in the diet makes for a more difficult time on the diet.




I went to see Dr. Graham today. He is a leading author on the raw movement. He wrote a book called 80/10/10. His whole principal is that we should be eating meals that are 80 carbohydrates, 10% protein, 10% fat. The typical standard American diet is roughly as I can recall he said, 70% carbs, 15 proteins, and 15 fats. Then he went on to reveal that most raw foodist are 60% carbs, 20% protein, and 20% fat, considering all the oils, nuts, and avocados we consume. I believe him. I hate to say it, but I feel better on cooked foods than raw with all the dehydrated foods, nuts, and fats. And just and FYI avocados are 77% fat, But with that said, nothing makes my body heal or make me feel healthier than raw food that is just the following:



1) Fresh Fruits

2) Green Leafy Vegetables

3) A little bit of seaweed

4) A little bit of sprouts



It was easy being raw today. I didn’t struggle to much.



My weight today is: 127.8