Wow! What a challenge today was. I had probably one of the most difficult craving moments I have had in a long time. I was desperate. But as much as I was craving, I kept repeating to myself that I was 100% raw. I took a nap saying it to myself. I blocked out thoughts of other foods. I impressed the ideal of green leafy veggies, fruits, seaweed, and sprouts in my head. It was a battle. It is the afternoon. I have won so far. It was amazing how all of it just came down to what I allowed to go into my head and what I kept out. The mind is EVERYTHING. I even had what felt like a total hypoglycemic attack, which would normally scare me into eating cooked. But I still kept with it. My head hurt, I was weak, I felt very very very tired. But no matter what was happening, I repeated that I was 100% raw foodist, and this is what I ate. It was amazing to go through such an immense sense for cravings and to top it all off with total withdraw symptoms and come out without having this take over. I am unusually upset too, especially because of the weight gain, but even that bad aspect didn’t drive me to a depression binge. I just kept giving myself affirmations of being a 100% raw foodist. And than on top of it all, today was a high and still is a high stress work day. My boss yelled at me 3 times today, because he is under extreme stress himself. I was able to stay away up until about 8 this evening. Than I just lost focus and I ate. I feel awful right now. This is so discerning. I so want to do this but am not being successful. I will try once more tomorrow. I will focus on the mind over anything else. The new 90 day deadline is now December 29th. I have to take it one day at a time.
My weight today is: 128.8 lbs.
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